:.A Beautiful Mistake.:

<3

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 23:58:18 GMT

Love. You Truly Desire Love.
You long for someone to hold you
and take the pain away....
You haven't been in much relationships
or you need to work on how to handle them.
You always seem lost in a daydream
about the person you care about

^ I couldnt have said it better myself.
Why are those things always so true?
Its kind of scary...
I should just..give up
I will give up

Oh an another question that i need help with...
What do you do when you care about a person and they dont care for you back?
What if they use to care for you but you fucked things up and now..
theres nothing you can do??

woohoo

Sun, 04 Apr 2004 17:22:54 GMT

This weekend was fuun. Jessi and Paige are my heros Last night we went to Piages friend Jonah's home,
his friends were there too...they were funny. Anyways, I kind of have a lot of homework. This quarter im going to
do really well:)

Still havent gotten any....

earings...haha jessi

~LyssyBear
^ha paige, is that how you spell it?

hahahaha

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 23:14:09 GMT

Im still cold from standing outside
because SOMEONE pulled the fire alarm.
hmm wonder who
I thought it was pointless but w.e
Ahhhh im like failing everything and
i have a project to do but, im not going to do it
dont feel like it...
well paige is here for the gym sooo
byeee
~Alyssa

Bahhhhh

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 00:35:31 GMT

Today was kind of bring
except i had about 1000 tests.
End of the quarter Friday,
Im nervous...62 in WH
yep.
I watched gothika finally!!
its sooo good.

Well this weekend should be pretty sweet.
Im planning on having a good time.
Hopefully with some action...
haha jessi
Sat. with paige and girlys....and guys haha
*wishes*
that would be awesome.

I have the FUNNIEST picture that i have to send mari
its a goat saying bahhhh LOL

Time to watch honey, which is probably gayyy
~Alyssa

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 02:02:08 GMT

god dammit it didnt work...oh well

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 02:00:54 GMT

i hope that works becuase she is so beautiful and thats all i have to say...

oh yeah...mary and tina are the funnies, i had a good time watching gothika and
getting scared with them tonight....:)

kind of dumb survey....take it:)

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 23:18:19 GMT

.:SuRvEy:.

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*

1) pierce your nose or tongue? nose

2) be serious or be funny? depends on the situation

3) drink whole or skim milk? skim

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*

4) simple or complicated? at times, i bet im complicated but i like to think im simple

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *

5) flowers or angels? Angels

6) grey or gray? Gray

7) color or black-and-white photos? I guess it depends

8) lust or love? Love

9) sunrise or sunset? Sunset definetly

10) M&Ms or Skittles? depends on my mood, M&Ms most of the time

11) rap or rock? mood thing again....

12) staying up late or waking up early? staying up late, no doubt

13) TV or radio? radio

14) water or soda? sodaaaaaa

15) eating apples or oranges? apples

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *

16) Do you have a crush? hmm maybe a little on ;)

17) Who is it? starts with a J....

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *

18) being hot or cold? hot

19) tall members of the opposite sex? yes, im tall so tall is good (except most of my bf's have been short :-/ hahaha)

20) sun or moon? moon, most definetly

21) emeralds or rubies? rubies

22) left or right? RIGHT

23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? one best friend

24) sun or rain? depends on my mood, i like rain

25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? CHOCOLATE!!

26) boys or girls? boys

27) beans or carrots? ...Carrots!!

28) low fat or fat free? ummm dosent matter

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *

29) What are your biggest fears in the world? people crawling downstairs in a back bend and on their fingers lol, things like bugs and such crawling on me, having no one...

30) Kids or no kids? NO KIDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

31) Cat or dog? cats:)

32) Half empty or half full? half empty

33) Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup

34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? Hardcover

35) Newspaper or magazine? Magazines

36) Sandals or sneakers? Sneakers

37) Wonder or amazement? Amazement

38) Red car or white car? red

39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? ummm i think happy and poor

40) Singing or dancing? both:) even though i suck

41) Hugging or kissing? Kissing

42) Corduroy or plain? plain

43) Happy or sad? Happy

44) Purple or green? purple

45) Blondes or brunettes? hmmm im not sure

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *

What time is it? 6.08

Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake? 15

Pets? 2 cats

Height? 5'6"

Hair color? multi-colored (brown woth blond and redish streaks)

Piercing(s)? ears:( i want my belly button pierced

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . . *

Do you want to get married? someday

Where do you want to live? im not sure yet

How many kids do you want? none

What kind of job do you want? something i like and yeah i guess i need to make some money doing it too

*. . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . . *

2 doors or 4 (on a car) : 4 (2 can be a pain in the asss)

Coffee or ice cream? coffee

Shampoo or conditioner? both, you definetly need both

Bridges or tunnels? tunnels

One pillow or two? many

* . . . W O R D A S S O C I A T I O N . . . *

(first thing that comes to mind)

Rock? and roll

Green? prude

Crying? cuddles

Peanut? butter

roses? red

Summer? YAY:D

Winter? corey...

* . . . F A V O R I T E S . . . *

Salad dressing? umm ceaser orrr that island stuff

Color of socks? bright and patterned

Toothpaste? colgate...the gel one

Food? mmm mac n cheese

Alcoholic drink? bacardi (not the raspberry one though haha jessi)

Non-alcoholic drink? pepsi and other soda

Cartoon Character? sponge bob

.. . . R A N D O M Q U E S T I O N S . . . *

When was your last hospital check-in? ummm febuary

Where do you see yourself in 10 years? still in highschool hahahaha

Have you ever been convicted of a crime? Nope

What do you do most often when you are bored? go online, cuz im a nerd

Friend that lives the farthest away from you? Corey

Are you open minded? usually

Can you be in love with two people at the same time? umm nope i dont think so

^^^ haha kind of stupid and boring but....if you have nothing to do go for it :D

"...fails to lighten the gloom i seem to be sinking toward."

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 19:59:20 GMT

This weekend was...fun and interesting. The girls (paige, jessi and kind of marissa)
were here all weekend pretty much and that was fuuuuun. :) we watched the excorsist, and i cried..again, im such a loser! If anyone ever wats to pay attention during a movie i suggest you dont go see it with marissa...haha anyways it was a good time and next time i wish that sami
would join us...ANIMAL NOISES----bahhhhh, polly want a cracker?!. hahahaha
marissa and i have no life:)
Im excited for next weekend if all follows through with mine and jessi's plan, that would
be pretty sweet. I also wish i could go to prom this year haha maybe, stupid austrian>o(jk)
Well, looks like i have a shitload of homework and yeah i need a good grade this year or no christina aguilera concert for me =O!!! better go work!!!...bye
~Alyssa

p.s. sorry:/

yep...

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 17:27:20 GMT

Everything kind of...sucks right now and yeah.
I had a fun night with the girls though, kind of
sad when marissa left but it was still awesoooome.
Hopefully tonite we all do something again.
That would be nice.

Well, i have a headache and im tired. Bye

NO MORE RUNNING THROUGH SCARY TREES =O

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 00:04:13 GMT

HAHAHAHA marissa, jessi and i just ran through these wierd trees that are all lined up in the woods,
its like a scary movie. Plus, it was dark and foggy out. On the way there we almost got attacked by
wild goats, i was the only one scared so marissa spit in my hair...lol. yeah thats my story so now
Im just waiting for Marissa and Jessi to come back and for Paige to get hurr (hehe). Laterrrr

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 01:26:12 GMT

Well, im glad I wasnt at school today.
Dosent sound like it was a very good day.
I should go to bed early
but i want to wait up and harass
my sisters new bf when he calls. hehe.

Im so tired of...everything. blahh.I just need to move on, but i still have my mind on him.
I think i worry too much and i need to stop because its getting me nowhere...Why is it I
still love him after hes a complete ass hole? Usually thats always in movies and you
yell at the TV screen telling the girl to forget him becuase she can do better and hes a jerk...
I feel like im living a movie. And i feel like an idiot. Im only 15, why am i feeling this way?
Its confusing and hard and i want everything to just go away, but then i would have nothing so

bye

little sisters = ANNOYING

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 22:06:48 GMT

My sister really pisses me off...
1. She thinks she is 1000 times better then me
2. She is VERY concieted
3. No one cares what she does because "shes getting good grades"
4. She thinks IM jealous
5. SHES ONLY 12!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh when will this all stop, its so frustrating!!>o

oh yeah and one more thing....
SHES A BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 20:42:33 GMT

Just got home from the Rock show.
It was good, except i was sick
so it made my headache 100 times worse.
I was so hyper though, Jessi kept getting mad.
I got even more hyper when i found out....

IM GOING TO SEE CHRISTINA AGUILERA!! :)

SO exciting...

Well better go do homework...even though im staying home tomorrow...

laterrr

ass.holes

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 23:15:42 GMT

Im sick. Again. This sucks.
Jessi just came over
we watched a movie, something Creek
haha my dad thought it was about ghosts?
it wasnt, at alllll
Hes a loser:)

Im so sick of, everything.
People are so stupid and it
sucks.
Maybe its becuase Im jealous
which is a terrible thing to admit...
but Im talking about this one guy.
I hope mine and paiges plan works
for prom...
That would be such a good time.
HE IS SO HOTTTTTTT haha ;)
and i need to take my mind off
other things.

OMG!!!!
SO MUCH FUN AT PUDDLE OF MUDD!!!
Carrie and Paige are my concert buddies now:)
hahahaha
ALIENNNN/corona----sorry about that carrie;)
you know you liked it biaaaatch!!
BADDDD BREATH:o!!!!lol
I still love you though...haha

I miss poopy:( lol heather
by the way thanks for getting me sick babe>o

BYEEEE

~Alyssa

oh yeah, i wish i could play lacrosse, stupid parents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 23:09:34 GMT

Today, was hell. Had the worst headache in the world, and like everyone was gone..cept sami and court:-)
Im so pissed that we had school today too, the roads were so bad this morning! But anywhooo (haha tanya)
Tomorrow better go by fast or ill be pissed, i get to spend the night at tanyas and go to McCauley with her
on friday. lol. yayy
Haha Hannah Spaulding is my hero...even though shes really perverted;-) jk haha Hannah, THE SHUTTLE-
COCK IS IN YOUR HAIR :-o hahaha looove you!!

Well, time to go start some homework...
~Alyssa

Boys are stupid >O

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 20:09:24 GMT

Hopefully no school tomorrow.
Then I can just sit in the hot tub all day
:-)
That would be fuuuun!

I really hate how ppl take other ppl's problems
and make them their own.
I think some people know who Im talking about.

My mom is so stupid!
and so is my sister...
and so are boysss

Im out..
~Alyssa

ahhh

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 20:10:22 GMT

Today, wasnt such a good day.
I hate Greely Hishchool, and most of the people in it:-)
except for some...

Why do guys have such a hard time just being friends...
Now Im back to the problem that i had before.
They cant just be "friends"
it always has to involve something else.
I hate it.

Haha now Im going to get picked on for the rest of my life
by zac and donny >O lol damnit.

"Sometimes it feels like this world is spinning faster, than it did in the old days.
So naturally we have more natural disasters, from the strain of a fast pace."

~Alyssa

life...sucks

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 00:08:20 GMT

Friday nite...
fuck it,
I dont know what to do
or say.

Tanya, ilysm
Sorry for this past week,
I know, its been...hard.
Hard on everyone...
Your my bestfriend
Never forget it.

Im sorry, to everyone.
Corey,Donny,Jessi,Ashlee,
Sami,Tanya...everyone.

~Alyssa

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 16:53:18 GMT

Well, Friday nite was...interesting. Thank you so much Jessi and Ashlee, for helping me...you girls are the best, never doing that again.

~Alyssa

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 00:43:39 GMT

We just pierced Jessi's nose....well Sami did, I watched..actually I turned away, ook I was there haha, it still counts. It looks so awesome though!! I WANT ONE, cept I'm getting my belly button pierced first haha.
TIME FOR DINNER...muahh

~Alyssa

Bored...

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 23:53:40 GMT

I can't take it any longer...

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 20:48:49 GMT

   Ahh today went by fast...which is good, but Im so tired. Tonite Im going to go to bed really early, even though I probably won't because I always say that and I never do.
   I am really axcited for lacrosse, haha Sami is too. But there is one problem, I am not in shape AT ALL...it sucks, cept Sami and I are gunna start running ;-) haha we'll see about that...
   I did ALL of my homework for today, I was so proud of myself...I have to start doing better so I dont have to do any classes over, that would be embarassing...
   Had a nice chat at lunch with Paige and Sami...I don't think they realize how big of a help they are, Im so nervous and ahhh I dont know. Thank you girls...

Well, I'm ouuuutie....going tanning soon :-D

P.S. thanks jessi for helping me out with this lol

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 00:34:32 GMT

looks like im doing lacrosse..now im excited:-)

Give Love...

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 20:32:03 GMT

   SCIENCE FAIR IS FINALLY OVERR!!:-D im so relieved, now I just have to bring up all my other grades...i dont know how the hell im gunna pull that off.. Today was kind of boring, Im still trying to figure out what I want to do this weekend...Im so tired maybe I'll just stay home and sleep.
   People keep telling me that this kid likes me, why can't you ever just be friends with a guy?? It always ends up in all the "going out" shit...it's stupid...
   Well, Im out...gotta go get my burnt nail fixed soon lol

~Alyssa

4-3

love is such an old-fashioned word...

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 01:36:49 GMT

       Its been awhile...last week was horrible, science fair and such. Ahh i was so stressed out but now its better. This weekend was really fun. Friday night I got to work at the jr. high dance with Jessi and Sami...had a good time with them before the dance too (one word, lucifer )hahaha i think i spelt that wrong...oh well.
       March 6th was mine and Tanyas inbetween birthday so we celebrated that with my family...I think they like her better than me hahaha :-( And i went shopping saturday and sunday so that was a good time...
      FUCKIN A i want this guy to notice me... haha Sami i said fuckin a :-P

~alyssa

oh yeah and whats with ppl calling my Lyss??? Lyssa is alright but ppl screaming LYSS down the hall way and in the library gets annoying :-D hahaha

April 3rd :-*